Saturday, July 31, 2004

Ray broke up with me (again) yesterday. It gets easier for me every time. I didn't even cry this time. I've become completely desensitized to it. However, I do miss him. When things were good, things were great, you know?

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Here's Vincent! Isn't he adorable? Posted by Hello
I had the craziest day yesterday.  First, Ray calls me at 8:00 in the morning telling me to get up and get ready so I can take him to Hillsboro.  I, of course, do not want to go, so we get in a fight about it.  He proceeds to come over and get my car keys so he can drive himself. Then, I find out that Alpha was dead, so I buried him in the backyard.  Afterwards, Ray comes back, and he gets mad at me even more because I don't want to talk about why he needed the car because I'm upset about Alpha, so he walks off.  Then I went to Adrienne's house to ask her to come over.  She did, and Ray called while we were outside saying that he had been calling and calling and that I never answered the phone.  (Duh.... I was outside) So then he got really pissed off and broke up with me.  So I got really upset and went back with Adrienne to her house.  About half an hour later, Ray shows up with an apology and a puppy for me!  He says it's because he was sorry for being such an asshole.  I loved the puppy, but Dad said I couldn't have him in the house, so I got upset again.  Then Adrienne called her mom at work and asked if I could keep him at her house til he was old enough to stay in a doghouse, and she said yes.  Then I went to work, and on my break shopped for all the stuff that Vincent (that's what I named the puppy) would need, then dropped it all off at Adrienne's house on my lunch.  After lunch, they started putting new carpet in the Portrait Studio up front, who's air ducts are connected to mine, so all of the fumes from the glue and what-not got trapped in my office because of the fact that I have no windows and can't keep the door open.  After about 3 hours of that, I was pretty nauseous and kinda loopy.  Then I finally got off of work and went to Adrienne's to visit Vincent, then went home and went to bed. 

I hope today is a little more calm.  I made an appointment for Vincent at the vet on the 4th, and all I have to do today is go to the dentist at 3.  Whoo-hoo.

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

My fish died this morning.  He was a blue betta fish named Alpha.  I buried him in the backyard, and Adrienne is coming over in a little while and we're going to have a little memorial service.  I know it's just a fish, and it probably seems a little stupid and childish to some people, but he was one of my pets, and I will miss him. :-(

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Sally (from work) had her baby on the 7th, and St. Francis Hospital finally got around to putting his picture up. Here he is, in all his "I look so much like my dad" glory. Posted by Hello

Friday, July 23, 2004

Inflatable Church.     Uhhh......              Okay.
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There was an article about Lori in the paper yesterday.
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

"Puberty is a phase...15 years of rejection is a lifestyle."   - Stanford Blatch on Sex and the City

I was engaged about 1 1/2 years ago, but then he left me for the token big-breasted blonde.  Anyway, he was only my second boyfriend ever.  Since then, I've had at least 10.  I think he might have cursed me.  Is it possible that I may never get married?  Has the fact that I've already had my nuptial dreams crash around me a sign?  Do I even want to ever get married at all?  Is it really that important?  Obviously my ex-fiance wasn't "the one", so how do you know when you have found "the one"?  What if you're wrong?

Ray, Danny, and I went to the Earshot concert last night at Creepy Crawl. Ray got all of the members of earshot to autograph my notebook. Pretty cool, huh? :-) Posted by Hello

Monday, July 19, 2004

I got my new cell phone (a Motorola V400) on the 11th.  I had been using the Polyphonic Wizard for ringtones for my previous phone (a Nokia 3595).  I had forgotten that you can also use the Wizard to send java games and applications to your phone.  However, I can't find a single file on the internet anywhere that doesn't cost me $5! Now, I know that there are free games out there somewhere.  If someone finds any, please let me know.  Thank you!

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Ray drew on my cigarette box when I wasn't looking one time when we were partying with David and Amanda. I wanted to take a picture of it before I threw it away. I love how he's always thinking about me. Posted by Hello

Friday, July 16, 2004

First of all, I just want to say that I love my friend very much, but god, she pisses me off.  Her, me, my boyfriend, and a friend of hers went to dinner last night.  We were having a great time, until the check showed up.  She blew up on me because she thought that I didn't tip enough.  "Well, people who can't afford it shouldn't go out to eat.  Go to McDonald's."  That made me feel so horrible.  I felt cheap, poor, hurt, shocked, and confused all at the same time.  It ruined the rest of my night, which included going to Pop's and U-City. 
I felt so uncomfortable in U-City.  Everyone there goes to college (obviously) and have internships at big, important corporations.  I just got pieces of conversations as we were walking down the street.  Everyone was speaking so intelligently.  All the people that I hang out with only talk about drugs, sex, and alcohol.  I wonder how different my life would have been if I went to college.  I'd have different friends, probably would have never met Ray ( :-( ), and wouldn't be working at Wal-Mart. 
I'd probably be smarter, too.  I always feel so stupid.  I may be smart about some things, but most things I am not.  I have no "street-smarts" whatsoever.  Whenever Ray takes me somewhere, like to a club or something,  I always stick out like a sore thumb because it's obvious that I don't belong there.  Then that makes me even more nervous than I already am, and in turn, say or do even more stupid things.  It's like my brain shuts off, but my mouth keeps moving.  I feel sorry for Ray sometimes; wanting to take me out to do things, but I'm just so nervous that I just stand or sit there and don't talk or do anything.  I love being with Ray, but I wish I just had some more confidence, then I think he'd be happier.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Upon hearing that her elderly grandfather had just passed away, Katie went straight to her grandparent's house to visit her 95-year-old grandmother and comfort her. When she asked how her grandfather had died, her grandmother replied, "He had a heart attack while we were making love on Sunday morning."

Horrified, Katie told her grandmother that two people nearly 100 years old having sex would surely be asking for trouble.

"Oh, no, my dear, replied granny, many years ago, realizing our advanced age, we figured out the best time to do it was when the church bells would start to ring. It was just the right rhythm. Nice and slow and even. Nothing too strenuous, simply in on the ding and out on the dong. She paused to wipe away a tear, and continued, and if the damned ice cream truck hadn't come along, he'd still be alive today.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

This guy comes into Wal-Mart the other day. He bought a computer monitor with a check for about $500, then immediately went to the service desk to try and return it to get the cash. In other words...Stolen check. Well, one of the managers called the lady on the check. Turns out it's his mother's. The guy's got a gambling problem. Well, since we refused to let him return the monitor, he starts going to other Wal-Marts. They call us to find out why we refused him, and in turn, they refuse him. My manager, June, believed that he was eventually going to come back here, and we would cancel the transaction and just give him the check back. He never showed up, so I put it in the deposit before I left. June comes up to me yesterday and says, "Remember that guy with the check? Wanna know why he didn't come back? He's dead. He was on (I think) 270 and ran out of gas or something, was outside of his vehicle, and got hit by a car." Didn't expect that story to turn out that way, did ya?

Saturday, July 10, 2004

I didn't have to go to the airport yesterday. Get this: I get up early, get ready, and walk over there. I get there and Adrienne says I might not have to go. They were waiting for me to get there so they could use my cell phone to find out if Matt (her boyfriend) had to go to guard. He didn't, so he went and I stayed. They didn't even thank me for coming over or for using my phone...and I had to walk home. I love how I'm so appreciated.

The craziest thing happened while I was there, though. I was sitting outside and remembered that I had left my sunglasses inside. So I get up, open the front door, and there's Keenan, holding my sunglasses. How freaky is that?

The Sevendust concert pics are up on the WQLZ website. I couldn't find me or Ray, but I did find a friend of ours, well, mostly his. I don't like him. He used to go out with Adrienne, but when she dumped him, it's believed that he killed two of her cats. Freak.

I got the chance to sign up for the Meet & Greet for Projekt Revolution when it comes to St. Louis. I love being an LPU member. I got presale pit tickets for the August 25th show in March! How cool is that? Plus, I may get to actually meet Linkin Park. Rock on.

Friday, July 09, 2004

I have to go with Adrienne (my best friend), and Keenan (her son, and my godson) to pick up Lori (Adrienne's mother) at Lambert tomorrow. I really don't want to go. They never even asked me...They just told me that I was going. Never mind the fact that I have to work tomorrow at 4 pm, and if her flight is late or something, I'll be late for work, and Vickie (my boss) would not like that at all. Plus, I just know that we're going to get lost. I mean, I can't drive in St. Louis without having a panic attack (more than two lanes freak me out), never mind being passenger and having Adrienne drive without me having any control over the vehicle whatsoever. Oh my God. I'm so scared.